Camden is getting worse. She is on max support from the ventilator with 100% O2 and her stats are not holding. For those of you close to Cary and I, I am sorry if you are finding this out via a blog, I just can't talk on the phone right now. I feel awful for even leaving her to type this, but it helps me and we need the prayers.

The doctors have started to talk to us about terminating support. He lungs are just to damaged. Even if she did survive there would be many complications, all of which I would accept. We even had a social worker come by today and asked me if I wanted an Amcross (a military message sent requesting emergency leave) sent tomorrow as if she knew something I did not.

I hate that we have gotten so good at prolonging the inevitable that we have to ask parents if they are ready to let go. No one should ever have to make that decision, and yet I feel as though the doctor is just buying time until we are comfortable with it.

We are still getting the occasional victory of a good blood gas here and there, but the efforts the staff have to take to get that good blood gas is getting more and more extreme.

I know many of you are praying for Cary and I, and wish for you to continue to do so, but please give us some time before calling. Right now we just need to support each other and the support of your prayers and our immediate family. Please pray for peace and strength as we are confronted with the hardest decision we have ever had to make.

Paul